A Nymph's Mumblings

Sun, 20 Jul 2008 21:56:50 GMT

Blah...I hate job hunting...I was so close to getting a job yesterday, nope, didn't get it...but I have an interview on tuesday at Macy's...I dare them not to hire me, or else I'll plop a duece right there, :P. I am a little hopeful though, it seems they'll hire anybody...and trust me, I do mean anybody.

'Mercurius, protect me from the thieves who wish me harm.
Watch over me, where ever I go.
Apollo, you who can shoot far and fast.
I ask that you protect me with your quick silver bow.
This I ask, so that it maybe so.'

-From my personal journal of prayers ;)

Thu, 12 Jun 2008 16:16:25 GMT

Light my soul on fire,
Let the sound of your lyre consume me,
With every taste I have of you,
I must have more,
Cleanse me with your light, Phoebus
Your praises I will sing,
Laurel crowned Apollo,

Oh shine your love on me,
Like Cyrene, I will not turn you away
Hear my voice sing, of my growing love for you,
I can never turn my back to you,
Behold, the golden beauty of my God,

Oh bless me with your lips, that can never speak a lie,
With your quick arrows, protect me, and all that I love,

May, the fire of my heart and soul, always burn with love for you!

Sat, 07 Jun 2008 23:07:14 GMT

Why the hell is it, that porn torrents only a few days to download, but regular torrents take freaking ages to finish!? Ugh, its so freaking annoying.

I love Granny!

Fri, 06 Jun 2008 14:25:15 GMT

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Thu, 05 Jun 2008 13:09:11 GMT

I can't help but find it interesting, that personality wise, I am a very sexualized woman. So much so, that I need it, like I need to drink water. But doesn't every human being? I'm afraid this goes much further than just sex, but also seeps into that other pesky human emotion-love. Yet, I have no partner, and the Gods who call out to me the most, aren't really associated with orgiastic rites. In particular Minerva and Apollo-especially Apollo now a days it seems. He is the God of moderation, rationality, philosophy, the arts, prophecy and healing-he also has many other epithets that imply other spheres of influence. I'm at a point in my life, where procrastination needs to be left behind and decisions need to be made. But I can't shake off or leave behind, my hunger for male companionship. Interestingly enough, it isn't like I'll go with just any man-just the other day, there was this older man talking me up on the train, and he wouldn't quit it! Anyways, maybe Apollo, just wants to help me, save myself.

I am a Female Masculinist!

Thu, 05 Jun 2008 02:11:51 GMT

As a woman, I do feel it is important for us, to be comfortable with our bodies, our sexuality, be able to have equal pay as men, etc. But here is where I get conflicted, it isn't exactly 50/50 among men and women. Yet, I feel that men are pigeon holed and stereotyped, quite often-as rapists, murders, abusers, overtly aggressive, and the list can go on I'm afraid. Maybe its me, but I can't help but notice, that there does seem to be an inbalance happening. Its a pendulum, which swung from androcentric and is now swinging to gynocentric.

A while ago, when I was a teenager, I went through a misandrist phase. But now that I'm a little older and a little more mature, I don't feel that way any more. Instead, I've come to feel compassion for them, they're the other half, they're my fellow human beings. I'm only talking about here in the west, its just fucking insane the shit a lot of women around the world go through. We western women have it pretty good in comparison, and yes there is imporvement to be made, but thats life for you. You can never do enough, perhaps thats why one of the delphic maxims is 'aquire your limit'. Men deserve respect and dignity, point blank, just like every creature in this world-I think its time, women woke up to that

Phew!

Tue, 03 Jun 2008 22:09:34 GMT

Prayer truly does work for those who believe and the Gods do speak for those who are willing to listen. Today I started out my day lighting a candle at my shrine and pour a libation. I said my usual personal prayers, but this time, I asked Janus and Mercury, to keep me calm on my way to the temping agency. I'm the type of person who gets nervous right away in new areas. My mantra through out the day was my prayer to Mercury. Yes, I was still a little anxious when I got there, but I wasn't a complete mess. I spoke coherently and held myself together maturely. Although, the receptionist test, they make you take on the computer was a real pain in my butt. The computers they had there were almost as old as I am. But I did the best that I could, and I felt like gentle Mercury, was with me, reminding me to breath.

Hail Mercury!
God of Commerce
Protector of travelers
Master of languages

Hail Janus!
Two faced God
God who guides
God who protects

Pax Deorum!

More Neglected than My Myspace

Mon, 02 Jun 2008 19:36:50 GMT

This account is more neglected than my myspace, one! But unlike with my myspace-its just plain old overrated, I do have a reason for my 'disapearence'. My life, thus far-like with most 21 year olds, has been one mass of chaos! And I'm just talking about college, I'm not going to get into the other areas of my life. First, theres the reading, then the exams, then mid terms, then that surprise 10 page research paper you only 'heard' about 2 weeks before, yep you guessed it, finals! Everything else, that isn't detrimental, gets lost in the scuffle. By the way, I should mention that I want to be a nurse. Oh Lordy, if I hear one more horror story about nursing courses, my head is going to explode. Although, I did fail my anatomy and physiology class, but right now I'm not exactly a nursing student and I may get a job temping.

I remember, that I wanted this journal to be a way for my to document my spiritual growth. I'm still interested in the Religio Romana, in fact, I've signed up for the Nova Roma mailing list. I even set up a small little shrine in my room. I really wish I hadn't forgotten about this journal, simply because, it would have given me a way to write out my doubts and thoughts. But, I do feel, like this is the path for me. In fact, during the last couple of months, I'm begining to believe, more and more, that I'm on the right track. I'll leave that for another entry.

Pax Deorum

Thu, 29 Mar 2007 20:49:19 GMT

When I was in high school I loved Hekate, I still do. Anyway one day I wrote this poem called Lampades

Dancing Free with Hecate by myside, underneath the diamond studded sky

Her red eyed hounds joyfully nipping at my heals

We dance through the willows and the yews

Screaming and howling to the moon

With out a care

For I'am free

For me Hekate stands for change and right now I feel like the gods, spirits, or who ever it is that watches over is trying to tell me that's time to let go and dance free with Hekate by myside. Perhaps she does watch after me...